Deleting Pictures and People.

I keep pictures as reminders of memories, but when the memories are too painful, I tend to destroy the pictures. I don't see any sense in keeping them around, when all they do is make me sad or mad or regretful or resentful. Am I wrong? I am not THAT sentimental that I need to torture myself with bad memories. I used to burn photographs and mementos, but now, in the digital age, I simply scroll and delete. Emails, photos, bookmarks.

Sometimes, I do the same thing with people.I occasionally go through my collection of Facebook people and try to justify their presence in my list. Do you ever do that? I'm sure you do. Facebook has brought me together with some people that I actually missed, and also has brought me back to people I'd completely forgotten about...and sometimes, has brought me together with people I didn't really like in the first place, yet they want to be my "friend". Why, if we weren't friends in real life, would I want to pretend to be friends now, in a new format? If you didn't like me then, I don't think you will now, I'm much less pleasant than I used to be. As I get older, I get more cynical and less tolerant of just about every human flaw. I have realized, however, that some people I really liked once upon a time, are still pretty fucking awesome and am super happy I reconnected via social media...others, I liked once upon a time but am realizing I don't really now. Awkward. Oh well...relationships have a way of working out or simply ending.

Every have a relationship that ended and you say "oh thank goodness!"? Then another one at the same time that you don't want to end, but you can feel it ending anyway? Do you delete the pictures and emails when you DON'T want the relationship to end??? Even though it's easier to NOT run into those pictures any longer? I don't know either. Do you take time to see how someone is doing when just the sound of their voice or even a one sentence text message makes your heart break all over again? OR do you shrug it off and go and enjoy the relationships that make you smile? I like those relationships...I believe that those people in my life know who they are and will read this without questioning my love for them.

I have about 400 more pictures to go through...I've deleted about 700 and believe it's time to start spending more time with people who's pictures seem to stand the test of my time. Yep. That's my plan.

AR