Turning 35, What I've Learned and What I'm Thankful For

Today I turned 35 years old and I've learned a few more important things this year. Some would think that I would be at rock bottom, having had headaches everyday for almost 2 years, living with my parents and dealing with appetite loss and general sickness for so long, but I think I'm actually pretty lucky. Yes, I've been depressed here and there, had my spells of crying all night because I'm tired of feeling so bad, but on the hand, things could still be worse. If I hadn't been living with my parents, I may have been even more depressed just by being alone and suffering so much, so having their support this whole time has definitely been a blessing. Also, I have really great friends! The kind who never change, never spend any time with small talk, who are always there, even when I don't see them for months at a time, the minute we are in the same room it's like not a day has passed, and that is magical for me. I've got a really great job. I get to help animals all day long, pet puppies and kittens and I work with really cool people. I did manage to get promoted even through these headaches and sickness, which I think is quite and accomplishment....and my cats are soft and keep me company.

Some of my friends have been unlucky enough to be called on my be when I'm really down and depressed and for that I'm sort of sorry...on the other hand, the fact that I came to you means you are something special, so keep that in mind.

I've come to realize that these headaches and this sickness is just going to be my life now, and that sucks...but with a chronic pain manager I will deal with it. So I will take narcotics every day, I'm sure there are worse things. As for this appetite loss, I've been wanting to lose weight, so this is helping. Maybe someday a doctor will figure out why this is happening, but until then, I'm going to try to celebrate my 35th year and not dwell on the ugly parts of life as much. That's my 35th birthday pledge. Hopefully I will get to see my friends more often because as much as loud bars hurt my head, it's worth it.